Why dont I call my mom and dad and talk to them more often?
I have such major guilt about this. Calling mom & dad, who actually love me, is an activity that i avoid. Dialing a booty call? I would not think twice about it, and you know that there is no love there.
Mom scolded me last month for letting 2 months go by without calling them. Its just as simple as pressing the speed dial and talking. I dont care about the long distance charges. Hell, I spent over $30 dollars in long distance last month, talking to people who dont love me.
OK here are the flimsy excuses:
- they live in EST, im in PST (oh big deal--handle that sh*t!)
- they are always conscious of the time spent talking, b/c they dont want to "run up my bill" (see above, the charges are immaterial)
- we always talk about how nice San Diego weather is (and?)
- i dont have any major news to report (usually the easiest reason for me to justify a call to them)
Arent these the worst excuses EVER? I know lots of people who would love to have the privilege and possibility to talk to their mom & dad, but who cant now that they have passed away, or cant because they dont know mom or dad, or who dont have the ends to make the call. My ungratefulness is outstanding and embarrassing.
The key to understand this call avoidance is this: I feel a need to justify a call to them. When in fact, NO justification is ever necessary or sufficient. It should be something done just out of love, and for no other reason.
My Christmas present to Mom & Dad, mark my words:
I'm going to call them every week from now on.
I might slip up on this resolution, but One Day At A Time. I am commanded to honor my mother and father.
Lord forgive me for not loving my neighbor as myself, forgive me for what I have done, and for what I have left undone. I am truly sorry and I humbly repent.
